Grow Up

I want a new start, a new beginning. I want to go somewhere with a meaning. Somewhere where people treat you like a human being. And like you mean something to them and this hopeless planet we call home. I want to move. Far.. far away. To a place where not a soul can find me. A place where I can stare at the big blue ocean all day, and not have to obsess over the less important things. It seems as if some people can't go a day without judging someone, or pointing fingers and laughing. Why do kids, no, why do people do that? Say mean things? What's the point in it? I don't understand. Dont't they say.. "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all." Learn to listen, then listen to learn. Grow up..

I want to love and be loved. Live life with all that I've got. Give as much as I have to give. I'm not living like I should. Hardly anyone is these days. Teenagers my age are going out every weekend drinking or doing drugs. What makes them any more cool than me when I sit home all weekend reading or talking to my boyfriend? Nothing. Because no one will get anywhere in life doing those things. Can't we change that? I want to do something different with my life. I want to create beautiful things, and inspire millions of people. I want to know I've inpired them to do something productive with their lives. I want to live my dreams.

Change Is Okay

Well, here goes a little bit of everything. I've read so many blogs about silly things like breakups, heartaches, hangouts, and so on.. I find it interesting to keep up with people and watch them change. Time does indeed change everything. No matter what I'm told, I'll always believe that. It's the end of my freshman year, and already I've been through so many difficult changes my head might explode if something else happens.

Throughout the summer of '09, and the beginning of my freshman year, I moved a numerous amount of times. I even lived with Shadera, shes only my best friend. My family got into a bit of a tough situation, and mom went away for awhile. Now, my mother and father are in the process of getting a divorce after being together for 15 years. But, things change, and thats okay. Mom and me currently live with my grandma. Although, we are looking for an apartment somewhere. One day, when she's done with what she needs to do here, we'll move away from this town. Off to my dream state, Maine. I'm a little more than excited. My mother is by far my best friend.

In the beginning of the freshman year, I had the most wonderful friends anyone could ever dream of. Now, half of them are gone, thanks to silly relationships that they think will last a lifetime. It's sickening looking at these middle and highschool kids who think they're in love. We're far too young to even talk about such things. I'll be glad when things go back to the way they're supposed to be. Unless, of course, this is how things are supposed to be. Then in that case, I want things to be how they aren't supposed to be. Because life seemed better before.

In more recent news, my summer vacation will start in 15 days. Although, if the weather doesn't change, it will start off cold and rainy. I want to see the sun shine. I will make this summer a happy one, even if things aren't the way they should be, or the way they shouldn't be.